2014 was the year when I revealed myself with a new identity as a Writer | Speaker | Coach.
The launch of my official website in November was certainly a milestone and one of the highlights of this year. But when I look back at the past twelve months, every accomplishment feels like a turning point in my personal journey.
In 2014, I successfully:
- Gave 30 talks and interviews
- Spoke in front of 1,000 people
- Organized 5 full days of writing workshops in Shanghai and Moganshan
- Taught Tai Chi to over 100 new students
- Coached 20+ clients on creative writing and therapeutic writing
- Made the decision to turn the 170 pages of my fiction into a memoir
- Launched my brand “Christine Leang, Fearfighter and Storyteller”, my website and my social networks.
Looks impressive on the paper, doesn’t it?
But as I like to put it, there’s no such thing as overnight success. Behind each of the above accomplishments, I was confronted with the following fears:
- Overcoming writer’s block
- Performing as a public speaker, something I had never done before
- Speaking in front of hundreds of people
- Putting together writing workshops from scratch, with no previous experience in this field
- Being responsible for the wellbeing of the people whom I coach and take on weekend retreats
- Making my imperfection public.
On a more personal level, in 2014 I also had to:
- Find a way to recover from a big financial loss
- Let go of my ego to build more harmonious relationships with those who matter to me
- Deal with my own helplessness when facing the illness of my loved ones
- Accept the dreadful possibility that I won’t be there if my loved ones pass away
- Etc. etc.
I faced all of these fears and chose to fight them with my most reliable weapons: creativity, authenticity, courage and martial arts. But I also had to face the reality of my own limits and accept them with humility.
Interestingly and paradoxically, accepting and embracing vulnerability is probably the greatest of all tools. Vulnerability teaches you there’s no such thing as perfection, and it’s okay to have fears. Once you accept this, it becomes easier to look your fears in the eyes and see them as part of your true and unique self.
2014 was the year when I chose courage and became a Fearfighter. This led me to recognize and embrace my vulnerable self, and I’m very grateful for that.
2015, I welcome you and I’m ready for more fear fighting!
Happy new year everyone!! :)
What about you? What fears do you want to tackle in 2015?