When last year I decided to start my Tai Chi retreat, to come back to Master Fu’s Tai Chi school for a longer and unlimited stay, I knew it would however come to an end one day. But it didn’t occur to me that 13 months would fly away, just like this, and that the time to leave would come so fast.
In 3 days, I’m leaving the Tai Chi school.
Even the best things have an end, they say. One of the things you learn in Tai Chi is to forget about the best and the worst. There is good in the bad, bad in the good. Movement in stillness, stillness in movement. Solid in emptiness, emptiness in solid. This ‘it’s not-all-black-or-white’ philosophy is well represented by the Tai Chi – or yin-yang – symbol (see below). Understanding and practicing Tai Chi everyday helps me to accept my dual personality, to be less extreme in my temper and to get closer to inner balance. Although the way is still long.
The thought of this unique experience coming to the end feels like a real loss. The idea of leaving this comfy, quiet, bubble like environment is scary. The image of me, bidding farewell to everyone before getting onto the cab next Monday, makes me depressed.
But in spite of all this, it does feel right to leave.
Why? Not because I’ve become a Tai Chi Master (I’m sooooo far from that point), but because I feel I was given the tools and the good ‘qi’ to keep moving forward on my own. At least for now.
And then what? Only time will tell.
Yin and Yang are not opposing forces (dualities), but complementary opposites that interact within a greater whole, as part of a dynamic system. Everything has both yin and yang aspects, as light cannot exist without darkness and vice-versa. The concept of yin-yang lies at the origins of many branches of classical Chinese science and philosophy, and it is a central principle of different forms of Chinese martial arts, such as Tai Chi.