Today, like every morning, we start the class with a warm-up, and then we execute the First Old Form (Lao Jia Yi Lu) twice.
This morning, I find it hard to practice, my knees and my kua hurt, and I’m not focused at all. My mind keeps wandering around those bothering and painful issues that have been putting my heart in turmoil.
These days, I’ve been feeling weary, with no energy for anything. No energy to have an active daily routine, no energy to smile, no energy to get up from bed, no energy to feed myself. It’s like I’ve no more interest for anything. That could be the end of the world tomorrow, I wouldn’t care so much. (yes, I know, what I’m describing is called ‘depression’).
But in spite of that low and slow mood syndrome, I force myself to keep going with the training. Because there might be no more training in a few weeks, or even a few days. And this is when the magic of Tai Chi operates.
After the first ‘Lao Jia Yi Lu’, which was a total nightmare for both body and mind, all of a sudden, something wonderful happens. My body, soon followed by my heart, finally opens up. Free I am! The unbearable burden I’ve been carrying has suddenly disappeared. It feels like the universe is unlimited, as well as the flexibility of my mind. “Feet anchored to the ground. Relax your shoulders. Open your arm and pull your hand, loooooonger!”, Master Fu says.
This is Tai Chi. It teaches you that inner peace is about opening up, whether it is the body, the mind, or to the world. The best cure for everything.